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Well, last night it happened again.  I am standing on the street minding my own business, waiting for my washing to be ready at the laundromat, when a creature came out of the pub nearby.  It is dark, and there is no-one around.  I barely noticed it at first.

I became aware of it kind of “lurching” around as it walked behind me, perhaps in a way similar to the mannerisms of some gorillas I have seen on film.  I heard it fiercely talking to itself.  At this point, I still didn’t realise what was happening.  I looked around.

As I looked at it, it suddenly slammed its right fist into its left palm very hard, so that it made a loud slapping noise, and it bellowed at me, “Fucking poofters!”  It continued to lurch on its way, but kept stopping, as though it was very tempted to turn around and harass me in an even more confronting way.

It continued to threaten me as it passed.  I cannot remember its exact words, and I don’t think I heard them all.  But I think it said, “Should kill them all,” at least once, and some other choice things, like “Get the cunts!” and “Cocksucker!” and stuff like that.

I don’t want to over-rate this incident.  This was a drunken blokebot, staggering past and giving voice to its testosterone misery.  As threats go, it was certainly nasty and brutish, but it was over quickly, and I soon recovered from it.  It WAS potentially a dangerous situation.  It seemed quite large and tall and certainly was capable of hurting me, I think.

The point I’m making here is that this is the fourth time in a period of just six weeks that I have been threatened by aggressive blokebots when I have been doing nothing more than minding my own business.

Just before Christmas last year, I was threatened by a “man” who visited me at my home, stood in the front yard, and threatened to “put me in hospital”.   I locked all the doors and waited until it left.

A short while later, I was threatened by another “man”, who challenged me to a fight.  I declined its invitation and narrowly escaped from that situation also.

These two “men”, and others like them, were responding to having seen and observed me in various places around my neighbourhood.

About two weeks ago, two aggressive young blokebots harassed me as I stood on the street outside my work very late at night.  They circled around me and threatened to bash me.  They followed me across the street as I hurried back to my workplace.  I got away, but again, potentially a very dangerous incident, and I was quite shaken after that one.

And now this latest incident.  And these four incidents are only some of the horrible things that have happened in the last twelve months or so.

I do now ask you to consider, dear reader, what it is like for people who are transgender when they go out, especially at night, when the cockroaches come out.  It is not just the aggression, but the reason for it that is so offensive: this kind of hatred targets people merely because of who they are.

Anyway things more generally having been getting along just fine.  My life continues along the trajectory I set it upon last year, my “trans” – formation into (what?) has certainly taken me a long way into female territory, for which I am very grateful to the Goddess.

Along with the new websites I’ve made on a  variety of subjects (and some of which remain in a sadly unfinished state), I have been working very hard to save money and prepare for the things I want to do over the next few years or so.  I am full of plans but see many obstacles, not least of which is my own willingness to sacrifice more and more of my time to the endeavours as they reach a more concrete state of manifestation.

A number of new creative outlets have sprung to life, mainly through Twitter; these include “Prime Minister Fudd, and the Zeitgeist of Transgenderism and Anti-HyperEnergetics”, the so-called, “Paradise Substances”, the “Religion of HyperEnergetic Up-phasing” along with the wisdom of Martha Westcott, “chapels unadorned, gardens without grace,” and some other choice imagery she has so kindly given us.

These all represent ideas and future directions for my work and my websites, so the reader who gets my original, one-off tweets is getting a sample in real time of these ideas and where they are leading me.  Whatever the case as to the originality and creativity of my ideas, such credit as there may be belongs to the Goddess alone.

Examination of a photograph of Saturn’s tiny moon Prometheus has led me into the creation of a new “department” of Prometheus at my website for the analysis of space anomalies, Alison’s Cydonia.  Cassini, gliding past at a distance of just 23000 miles, has snapped a photograph of Prometheus which is by far the best ever image of the object.

We find that it is a strange object, with an oval or egg-shaped overall appearance and many pock marks.  There are lines on the object, some of which nearly form a perfect diamond shape.  Various objects appear to be protruding from the surface of Prometheus, and I have started an examination of them at my new page on Prometheus artifacts at Alison’s Cydonia.

The interview with Rabbi Yeshua went ahead as planned, and the publication of Part 2 of the Interview Transcript will occur just as soon as I can finish the editing and formatting I have to do.  Rabbi Yeshua, if you are not familiar with him, is the guy who played the part of Jesus, the Good Shepherd, in the post-pagan dogma-drama of the central myth of the religion known as Christianity.  The good rabbi came to visit me at my home, and to my surprise, he likes a beer!

Here is a link to Part 1 of the Interview with Rabbi Yeshua if you have not seen it yet.

And of course I am continuing my discussions with the great Giordano Bruno about the manner of his death, the fate of his killers, and extracting as much of his great practical wisdom as I can.  The interview with Giordano went ahead at the time of the New Year, and Part 1 of that interview has been published.  I am currently preparing Part 2 of the interview for publication, which should be possible before too long, I hope.  The great Giordano is a fabulous guy as I’m sure you’ll agree when you read the transcript of our discussions of things.

22, the newest site I have started, remains in a completely unfinished state.  At this site, it is my intention to delineate accurately the 22 basic archetypes of human consciousness which find expression in both the Hebrew letters and the Tarot, and which can be given designations as the 22 directions on the Cube of Space.  It is a big exercise though, and at the moment, I have only a little time to devote to it.  22, I think, will still be under development for a while.

To kick things off there, I have pointed out that card number one, usually called “The Fool” is the card which corresponds to Alpha of the Hebrew letters, whilst card 2, usually called, “The World” corresponds to the letter Beht.  This gives us the Word, which is known in English as “Alphabet”.  The Aphabet is the language of creation of Everything Existing.

On a side note, this gives us the clue as to the story of the birth of Jesus Christ in Bethlehem, known in Hebrew as Beht-lahm.  The reason that Christ is born here, is simply to dramatize the Cosmic Energy falling from place 1 (undifferentiated, pure absolute) to place 2 (the first “container”, the so-called, “house”, the “beht” of Hebrew.  Christ is born into matter.  Alphabet.  The mythology fits the Kabbalistic truth.

Unfortunately, due to ignorance of Hebrew, certain English gentlemen appear to have made a number of fundamental mistakes in the ordering of the Tarot trumps, one of the great questions of Western occultism.  This has resulted in the placement of the card “Magician” or “Juggler” into position 2, where it does not belong, and some other consequent incorrect placements.  22 will investigate all of these and much much more!   You will see 22 grow substantially this year, I hope.

At Spiritual Sex, things are getting along just fine.  This site is due for an update as well, so expect that to happen before too long.  Spiritual sex examines the phenomenon of the Tantric Sexual Vortex, and explores a practical methodology to get the energy spiralling up through the chakras to result in the Holy Grail of Tantra, the simultaneous, galactic level orgasm which is the gift of Goddess to those who can reach this high in their spiritual and sexual practises.

At AstroMajix, things have been developing quite nicely as well.  I have completed the initial draft of quite a few asteroid delineations, the latest one being the asteroid Icarus.  The articles and information at this site is growing and I am gratified by the many hits and google searches which have led people to the site.  I am an experienced astrologer and have a lot to say about many aspects of this science.  I hope that AstroMajix will also grow very significantly this year, and eventually will be a very large repository of astrological information, focussed upon new areas of astrology like asteroids, centaurs, the Vertex Anti-Vertex axis and the Aries Point.

I should mention that I did analyze a number of events which occurred as the asteroid Eros crossed the Aries Point last month.  A number of extremely representative incidents occurred around the world, some of which I was able to list and document.  Unfortunately, so far, I have not found the time to write up this important article.  I will give myself a couple more weeks, certainly I hope to have it published soon.  The phenomena which occurred were highly analyzable not just in terms of Eros itself but also the aspects which Eros made to other asteroids and planets as it crossed the Aries Point.  Stay tuned for this article.

My “pansy websites”, which of course are really exercises in exploration of male sexuality and feelings in a paradigm of feminization and submissiveness, continue to slowly grow and develop.  I have really reached something of a plateau with these sites.  I am happy with them but still have much to do.

First, at Paradise Rocket, we explore the ideas of “pansyhood” and “pansy sexuality”, what it means, through essays, poetry, stories and articles.  The material here is suitable for any man who is feminizing, whether or not he actually wishes to use any of the methods and so on, simply to get my perspective on things, and to understand the process of feminization better.

Secondly, at the Panty Training Institute, we endeavour to delineate those practises which are known as Panty Training, along with associated practises and methodology, for the feminization of men.   This site is directed towards both pansies who wish to undergo some form of Panty Training, and also towards Panty Trainers themselves.  At the PTI, we examine all manner of practises, discussing their benefits and results in terms of feminization.  At the most basic level, the site is a metadogmatic excursion into the “games people play”, under conditions of “conscious interaction and interplay of the power dynamics of dominance and submission”.

Finally at Majixtrix, I focus upon the use of ritual majix in the relationship between a dominant and a submissive person for the ultimate glorification of everything.  We look at techniques for conducting rituals and for ritualising the dominance and submission dynamic.

It must be remembered that none of these practises are an end in themselves.  The purpose of game playing is ultimately just ecstasy for everyone involved.  Dominance and submission games, played consciously, simply recognize and accept that the exchange of power is the fundamental dynamic of human relationships.  By doing what we do in a “coccoon of love” we can play whatever games we want, knowing that Love rules.  At the same time, the games and rituals are designed to facilitate the notion of “uncertainty”.  If we want to bust out into reality, we have to come to terms with, and live with, uncertainty.

Humiliation games, reward games, punishment games, bondage, submission, teasing and so on, are all power exchange practises which should only be attempted in an environment of Love.  These are Meta-Games.

Ultimately, for someone who is male, their journey begins with the slow relinquishment of male sexuality; at the furthest extent of feminization, at some point which is unclear, the man changes inside, and becomes more female than male.   A pansy, if thought of as a male person (which I do not do, actually: pansies are female inside to me), is actually very close to being wholly female; the one thing which holds such a person back, is the possession of so-called male genitialia.

It is up to every male person to decide to what extent the games, rituals, and practises I talk about on my websites are for them.  For me, they have a powerful role to play in the destruction of false male ego.

At HyperEnergetics, the examination of the vortex as the template for universal reality is ongoing.  I am quite content with the state of this site for the time being.  It is getting quite a lot of hits from around the world which is very gratifying.  At this site, my role is like that of a translator;  I am trying to present a picture which will enable the reader to grasp a view of “so-called science” within a paradigm of the Miraculous;  this site will gradually continue to grow and change as I develop the ideas which I have seeded there.  I hope it will become a place which helps people to place the discoveries of modern physical sciences and cosmology in some kind of ordinary perspective.

Finally the 666 Chix site is coming along nicely, with a lot more work to be done.  At this site, we explore the ideas and notions which females need to acquire in order to become truly conscious participants in the play of events around them.  At this point in time females are still badly hooked to the old order of things which is controlled by unreformed men.  666Chix aims to help liberate these people by showing them a way of out co-dependencies of all kinds, from the co-dependent marriage to the co-dependent relationships many women have with doctors, bureaucratic agencies, and the provision of welfare generally.

In my “real” life, the life of Alison, I am continuing to feminize myself along the path I set for myself last year.  I am on a significant dose of female hormones daily, and I take a testosterone blocker as well.  I continue to develop my feminine qualities and abilities.  I am working on my body and doing voice exercises and so on, to feminize myself as much as possible.  This year, I hope to visit various people, including speech therapists, cosmetic clinics, and image professionals, to get as much assistance as possible into my ongoing trans-formation.

I still do not really know how far I will go, and where it will end up.  I am happy with things at the moment.  I see the path ahead, but, just as we all do, I must cope with uncertainty, the uncertainty of not knowing exactly what will happen.  We will see.  One thing is clear.  I want to keep feminizing and becoming more and more female in all of my self expression.

If you have visited this blog before, you’ll notice I have selected a new theme.  Unfortunately it upset the formatting of some of my previous posts, something which I also hope to fix this month.  So much to do, so little time!

The appearance of the blog should gradually improve as I add some more bells and whistles and get the formatting right.  To add to the confused state of things, in January I decided to change my middle name to Primrose.  These two names, Alison Primrose, will soon become my legal names.  I am therefore in the process of updating my name as it appears in various places around my sites.

The time is right for me to go.

May the Goddess bless you all.

Peace!  Let us all be exactly what we are.  Accept ALL.  No-one knows the precise course things are meant to take.

Don’t forget you can follow me on Twitter or get an RSS feed of my tweets.

Lotsa love to all my readers,

Miss Alison Primrose Hyperfairy

Psychiatry would appear to be a system for classifying the mental or psychological state of others in reference to a standard, approved set of characteristics known as “normality.”

The purpose of psychiatry is to enable those in power to classify the mental state of others, so that they can be controlled.  It further enables this controlling behaviour to be rationalized, so that all appears justified in “scientific” terms.

“Normality” is defined by those in power, but not overtly, and for them is seen essentially as  those combinations of personal characteristics in people, which do not challenge or threaten the power of those in power.

Anybody whose existence challenges and threatens the power of those who hold it can bes classified as other than normal, thus allowing rationalisation of control methods as being due to the findings of psychiatry, a “science.”

Psychiatry is referred to as a “a science”, since it claims to function and derive its conclusions using so-called objective scientific methods. However, speaking generally, the profession as a whole does not seem to even possess sufficient insight to understand that its classification systems are arbitrary and subjective.

It does not appear to understand that such “rationalizations” are, to many other people, really just more lies, which those who hold power tell themselves in order to justify cruel and unusual behaviour towards other innocent people.

Psychiatry is a particularly disturbing so-called science, since it claims to understand and take account of the mental and emotional state of people, whilst in fact using fake, even pathetic rationalisations to justify itself and perpetrate cruel behaviour towards people who do not hold the same measure of power and status in society as is held by the so-called “psychiatrist”.

These may well be people struggling, in a perfectly understandable way, with the abuses of power which are committed every day by the ruling elite, which lauds these same “psychiatrists” as genuine examples of humanity, when these same people are often little more than grown up versions of little boys who torture insects in order to satisfy some pathetic power fantasy.

Psychiatry historically has at many times been the opposite of what it presents itself to be:   claiming to be part of the compassionate, humanitarian movement in modern medicine, yet often in fact representing the cruel and unusual perversions of those who hold power and will do anything at all in order to maintain it.

Psychiatry is, when used to classify and control people, a form of fascism in action; the vile actions of Nazi doctors like Joseph Mengele are just a more dramatic version of the “crimes against our humanity” that ordinary psychiatrists commit casually every day.

And what shall we make of excursions in depravity, such as the many experiments conducted by fascist psychiatrists in the USA in the 1950’s,  60’s, and 70’s that we hear about?  The documentation relating to the collaboration of the CIA with the profession of psychiatry during this period, relating to “MK Ultra”, and many other forms of experiments which were conducted on behalf of the CIA or the military, are a sad indictment of these wrong-headed people.

Psychiatry can be seen as another technique used by those in power to maintain and hold that power.   By classifying “enemies of the state”  according to the system of psychiatry, cruel and inhuman control and punishment methods are enabled for those who can be classified as abnormal, psychotic, behaviourally disordered or sick.   Anyone who can successfully be classified in the psychiatric system is then subjected to anything from chemical invasion to incarceration.

There is nothing objective or scientific about the classification systems of psychiatry, since they are all defined by reference to a supposed state of normality which is nothing more than that state of mind, personality and character which is most conducive to following rules, doing what you are told, and not questioning anybody or anything.   Those who question authority, the rules, or the system can be held to be abnormal, and cruel and unusual “punishments” can then be imposed.

This helps those in power to maintain it and defuse any potential threats to power. People who do not actually break laws can then be classified, and this classification can then be used to stop them from doing what they are doing by incarceration or by chemical poisoning. These punishments are usually referred to as “treatments.”

Without the existing power balance in society, there would be no need to classify people at all, since the classification is arbitrary anyway, and serves only those who are in power. The so-called medical basis of psychiatry would then be destroyed, and the practise itself seen to be what it is, a means of controlling others.

Well, strong words, but that is what Alison thinks at this time, about the great, humanitarian, objective, compassionate, intelligent, selfless “science” of “psychiatry”. These people are often of dubious intent, and personally, I feel that they should be treated with suspicion, until the true intent of their character is clear. Every psychiatrist should be scrutinized for their personal motives for “helping” others,  and be very wary of those who appear to desire the maintenance of personal power and status within the neo-fascist structure of the modern “democratic” state.

Of course psychiatrists claim to “actually help” people. This is rarely likely to be the truth, and in many cases a fantastic falsehood;  such “help” is usually in the form of chemical invasion of the brain in order to induce a state of passivity and blind obedience.  Again, the main concern is that this type of treatment has the purpose of assisting those in power to maintain that power.

Of course it must be understood that psychiatrists themselves are often just as much victims as their so-called patients. Nothing in this article should be taken to suggest that any particular psychiatrist is actually conscious of the true nature of his so-called “profession”, or that any particular psychiatrist or group of them is guilty of anything.

Whilst it may be so, it is just as likely that the psychiatrist himself is just as much a victim, albeit one who profits enormously from his own ignorance, as his patient.

Those who serve the power elite in society are often unconscious in what they do.  This is not an excuse; any reasonable person ought to be able to see the truth about psychiatry; I would suggest that without some sort of ingrained perverted tendency, and an inner need to control others by classifying them, the average person would be unlikely to embrace psychiatry as a profession.

It is the money, power and status of this role in the neo-fascist modern “democratic” state which appeals to certain types of people.  More recently, I have observed the rise of some of the so-called, “spiritually aware” psychiatrists.  These people may be free of the needs of former years but still need careful scrutiny.  Many, many people are attracted by the ego rewards of compliance  with the heirarchical power structure of the modern state, and therefore fall for the fanciful view of  psychiatry as “truly objective science”  to fulfill their fantasies of ego-based power and superiority over others.

That’s enough for today on this subject, I think

Goddess bless you all, lotsa love to all my readers,

Miss Alison Pansy Hyperfairy

Hello to you, dear reader.

I am Alison Hyperfairy, radical pansy, trans woman, she-male, demale, crossdresser, transvestite, male to female transgender person, transgenderist, fairygirl.  Others might have other names for me, who knows?

I am not a transsexual, if current definitions of some people are accepted.

If current definitions are rejected, then I can be a transsexual or whatever I want to be.

I don’t want to stir up trouble.  I simply am.

If other people call me things, in an attempt to have some sort of control over me, I can choose whether I will accept those labels or reject them.

There are those who say, “You are not a real trans woman, because you call yourself a pansy, traditionally the label for an effeminate or girlish man, and therefore you retain male identity structures in your brain.”

There are those who say, “You are not a man, because you dress as a female, you have breasts, you have feminine behaviour and preferences, and you call yourself a pansy.”

There are those who say, “You are not a real woman, because you have male genitalia.”

And what of Alison?  Wot say me, that I am? Does that matter?

Today Alison wades into gender politics with her best big, bright pink gumboots on.

All labels are a tool of politics.  All labelling is an attempt to have power and control, in some way, however this may be disguised.  This back and forth labelling, in an attempt to see who is more powerful, is the battleground of gender politics.

I feel bound to state firmly that I do find gender politics, as it is played out in media, blogs, movies, docos, books, most utterly disagreeable and distasteful, a strange thing, most utterly foul, because it neglects the most fundamental thing we all need to do:  to be wot we are.  Regrettably, gender politics is, in a limited sense, necessary at times.  Sigh.

I think we need to examine this phenomenon, gender politics.

The human being is a discrete entity.  The human being exists in a field of interactivity with the environment.  There are two basic types of human being; those who regard the environment as static, and those who see it as dynamic.

All spiritually awakened people live in a dynamic reality. To some considerable degree.

All dogmabots live in a static reality.  To some considerable degree.

Here we meet head to head on the crux of human power games.

Conditioned reality is the world of the dogmabot.

The Unconditioned is the world of the spiritually awakened person.

To live in the Unconditioned World, one must break out of the Conditioned World.

All politics is a function, a condition, an article of content of the Conditioned World.

To be wot I am, means Being in whatever environment.

I establish my rights, not by talking about them, but by being wot I am, first and foremost.

Therefore to be wot I am is the only politics I am interested in.

Therefore, it is right and true and proper that I should Work for my Being, because then the words which flow forth from me will more accurately and truthfully and powerfully and lovingly Represent Me.

I AM comes first, and only then, do we consider the words which flow forth from my Being, which is in actuality the reality of I AM.

If I have an influence on my environment, then that is because of my Being, primarily, not my words.

There is a heirarchy of function.  My Being comes first, my words flow from my being.

Gender politics is not an argument, it is the necessity to be wot we are.

In being wot we are, other people will say things.

We have a choice then.  We can be wot we are, or we can forget to be wot we are.

If we enter the discussion, we might forget to be wot we are.

This is gender politics.

We might fall under the illusion that we need to establish an agreement on conditions and boundaries and definitions and so on, and so end up playing a game, a power game about who gets what power and status in society and when and how and so on.

Sooner or later we agree with the dogmabots, and then we suddenly realise, we have forgotten to be wot we are.

And then a new struggle commences.

This is just life – feeding on vibrations in the environment and using them to ascend the ladder of Being.

In being wot I am, sometimes I feel like I want something from my environment to make me feel more like I am being wot I am.

Sometimes I want rights, priviliges, protections, recognitions, awards, money, possessions, status, and power.

In wanting these things,  I may become Political.  There is nothing wrong with this.  It’s necessary sometimes.

In wanting these things, I may start emphasising the Great Truth, of the words which come forth from my Mouth.

Ah, and so I get caught up in it, and my Truth becomes the Argument, rather than the Truth of my Being.

To Be – this comes first, then talk.  I AM, and I will Be Wot I Am, and then I will talk.

To be wot I am – this is the Main Thing.

And how do I do that?

The answer is simple.  Your relationship with the Divine inside you is everything.  Everything.

Inner spiritual work.  Meditation.  Whatever you want to call it, I don’t want to try and be specific here.  Wot you do, and wot you call it, is your business.  So long as it puts you close to your spiritual centre, do it!

A life devoted.  A life given.  Things forsaken.  Sacrifices made.  Be at One with the Divine inside you.  Do this, and all other things you need will flow forth from it.  Including the right words to communicate the things you need to say to others in order to meet your goals and aspirations.

Don’t put the gender politics cart before the spiritual horse.

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A fairy I am, in Paradise,

It’s so wonderful here, so very, very nice.

There’s sugar and spice

And much to entice

To live here,  leave your False Self behind

That is the Only

Sacrifice.

With lotsa love,

Miss Alison Pansy Hyperfairy